Accepting and celebrating the things that make you “different” is…. good. It can be great, liberating even, to accept that you don’t have to fit the mold or meet certain arbitrary expectations to be a fully realized person.
But sometimes you do crave certain aspects of “normalacy” that you know you’re just… not wired for, and maybe you feel guilty for that, because ideologically you reject the notion of “normal”. And yet. And yet!!!
Of course the grass always looks greener on the other side of the fence, when no grass grows on your side at all. It’s still your yard, though, grass or no grass – you can always build a rock garden. And yet…!
Honorable mention to the feeling of “I don’t actually want that, but I do kind of want to be able to want that.”
Also, the fear that expressing your sense of missing out will be used against you and turned into, “see, ‘different’ IS an aberration, you want to be ‘fixed’ and that’s proof!!!” so you just grimace and quietly arrange your rock garden without complaint.
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